Roadside Chats (5) 21/2/15

Dozing on the edge of sleep I hear the Self speak: ‘May all the Goddess; God and Goddess, greet you.’

The ‘saying’ amazes me. I realise that in my thinking God and Goddess have always been separate. The Selfs blessing unites them. It invites both the Sacred Masculine and Sacred Feminine to ‘greet me’ within the Goddess. The saying opens new avenues to understand and experience the Sacred.

 May all the Goddess; God and Goddess, greet you

 Masculinity and femininity empower you

 Within and without establish you

 Over and under protect you

 Guide you safely

 Home

I park up at the Maitai Valley Motor Camp. After my time at Evolve I need to relax and take stock.

I love the Maitai camp. It’s surrounded by bush and forestry. The Maitai River runs alongside. I wake to the song of tui and bellbird. I meet travellers; spend time on my bike exploring; swim in the local swimming hole. The cicadas are incessant.

Cicadas on the Camper roof

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 I talk with a woman in the camp kitchen. She shares about her life. She tells me she’s sixty years old; lives in a tent & is looking for work. As she shares I feel her touch into the pain of her childhood. She mutters something about being a Christian. She says she almost committed suicide following her father’s death.

I ask; ‘How has being a Christian helped you?’ She tells me that God spoke directly to her as she considered committing suicide. I ask her what God said. She says; ‘God said, don’t do it or I’ll throw you in the lake of fire.’ I feel shocked at her words… I can’t imagine God speaking such horrific words to a person considering suicide. Yet, I lay my judgement aside. Instinctively I know if I voice my questions I will close the way of hospitality. I decide to accept her words and the spiritual world she inhabits. Perhaps God did speak to her from within the framework of her Christian beliefs? Who am I to judge? I say; ‘It seems to me that hearing Gods voice has saved your life.’ She looks at me and nods.

She asks if I am a Christian. I tell her I don’t call myself a Christian. I find the word ‘Christian’ creates barriers and misunderstandings. I tell her my spiritual path is to follow the way of love. I tell her I like the way Jesus taught that we each have a ‘treasure’ or ‘pearl’ within us. It’s as we connect with our ‘treasure’ that we connect with the life of God. Again she nods.

I feel good about the conversation. I like the way I asked how Christianity had helped her. I had to push through my fear that she would attempt to bible bash or convert me. When I did this a bridge was created.

The next day the woman and I chat amicably: strangers reach out… become friends.

It’s time to visit Christchurch. My sister Eilish turns 50. My granddaughter Aria begins to walk. There’s a third reason. A friendship buds and blossoms. I feel attraction. My friend and I decide to spend time together. She drives north while I drive south. We are to meet at Big Bush.

As I drive I listen to Ry Cooder. Ry sings of the outlaw Jessie James. Jessie is in heaven when he gets the news that the rich on Wall Street are robbing working people, and, what’s worse, the government is paying them to do it. Jessie asks God for his trusty colt 44 so he can return to earth to sort the situation out.

I smile as I realise how much I enjoy ‘outlaw’ music. I like songs that are set in badlands & wild places. The badlands are where the action is. The badlands call us beyond our limits; beyond our security blanket. My heart smiles as I return to Big Bush campsite. This time it’s different. There’s a blue tent pitched beside the Camper.

You drive north and I drive south

  We meet in the badlands

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 Roadside Blessings – Kevin

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