I know not what your daughter turns toward
It is enough to know
Yoga of Lament
Winters broken blue ladder
The Yoga of Lament is a slow, difficult yoga. Yet the Self, the Angel of our Being, walks with us in our grief. The Self learns & evolves through our sorrow & questioning. The Self may assist us; through a dream, an inner voice, or a sudden unexpected insight, to see our loss from its greater perspective. This can enable us to relate differently to our grief. In this way the Self is like a guardian Angel. The poem is built around two ‘sayings’ of the Self during a time of loss. 1) ‘Do you know what my daughter turned to?’ (12/6/12). This ‘saying’ helped me see the larger perspective of the Self. It reminded me of the experience of Job… who… after the loss of his home & family… questioned Yahweh. Job believed he was a righteous man & therefore not to blame for his loss… so who was to blame? Could Yahweh be to blame? Was Yahweh unjust? Finally Yahweh answered… not to answer Job’s specific question but to put Jobs questioning in perspective… ‘Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundations? /Tell me since you are so well informed! /Who decided its dimensions, do you know? / Or who stretched the measuring line across it…’ Job 38:4-5 (New Jerusalem Version). Job encountered the Numinous & his experience changed him. ‘Before, I knew you only by hearsay/ but now, having seen you with my own eyes, /I retract what I have said, /and repent in dust and ashes.’ Job 42:5-6 (NJV). My experience of the Self’s wisdom helped me realise the limits of my comprehension. It helped me let go & love & trust. Through the phrase, ‘my daughter’, the Self reminded me that we are each a son or daughter of the Mystery. It is honouring to both the Mystery, & to one other, to treat each other this way. 2) ‘You need to honour the rose within you, or suffer the consequences.’ (12/6/12). The outer rose can lead to the inner rose, but ultimately it is not the outer rose we need. What is decisive is our connection to the inner rose: i.e. to the soul & its intimate connections with the Sacred Feminine. We honour the ‘rose within’ as we enter into our loss & express our grief, while at the same time opening to the Compassion, Creativity, Wisdom & Healing of the Great Rose, the source of all.