Psalm 63

Out of the depths… I hear your voice… Tom Bombadil has arrived…
Sense significance… Sanctity… Scrawl words to paper… Snooze –

Pre-dawn… Out in my shed… Lapsang Souchong in hand…
Thumbing my 70’s Lord of the Rings… I join Frodo… Questioning…

‘Who are you Master?’ Frodo asks…
‘Who are you…’ Tom counters… ‘Alone… Yourself… & Nameless?’

Who am i? … Who am i?
Alone… Myself… Nameless…
Before… Language…
Before… Roles…
Before… Name, Religion, Race…
Before… Male, Son, Grandson, Nephew, Brother, Friend, Lover,
Husband, Son-in-law, Father, Uncle, Grandfather…
Before… Student, Drop-out, Hippy, Gardener, Yoga, Caretaker, Christian,
Minister, Counsellor, Therapist, Spiritual Companion, Taoist, Shaman, Poet…

Before… Before… Before…
Alone… Myself… Nameless…

Before the ego… the Fixer… the Objectifyer… the Reasoner…
The Controller… the Security Craver… the Significance Needer…

Before… Before… Before…
Alone… Myself… Nameless…

Kevin Moran 31/3/08

Whakapapa: This poem arose out of my first experience of the Self speaking to me. I woke in the night hearing the words, ‘Tom Bombadil has arrived!’ There was a sense that this was a very significant event (18/1/02). The experience still amazes me. At the time I heard these words, my cognitive mind had no clear understanding of who ‘Tom Bombadil’ symbolised. All I knew was that he was a character in The Lord of the Rings. Yet the Self knew exactly who he was & used the name ‘Tom Bombadil’ to announce its arrival. The next morning I went out to my shed to read more about Tom Bombadil. I discovered Tom is the Self: a unique epiphany of primordial Nature (see below). Over six years later I wrote the psalm. The psalm involves meditation on Frodo’s question ‘Who are you?’ & Tom’s answering question ‘Who are you?’

The question ‘Who am I?’ is a part of so many spiritual traditions. I first came across it through the teachings of the Indian guru Sri Ramana Maharishi. Sri Ramana Maharishi used the question ‘Who am I’ as the focus of his spiritual teaching. He said, over & over again, this is the one question you need to ask. Follow it deep enough & it will take you where you need to go: beyond the constraints of the ego system & into the uniqueness & vastness of the eternal Self.

“Who are you Master?’ Frodo asked…‘Eh, What?’ said Tom sitting up, and his eyes glinting in the gloom. ‘Don’t you know my name yet? That’s the only answer. Tell me, who are you alone, yourself and nameless? But you are young and I am old. Eldest, that’s what I am. Mark my words, my friends: Tom was here before the river and the trees; Tom remembers the first raindrop and the first acorn. He made paths before the big People, and saw the little People arriving. He was here before the Kings and the graves and the Barrow-wights. When the elves passed westward. Tom was here already, before the seas were bent. He knew the dark under the stars when it was fearless – before the Dark Lord came from Outside.” J.R.R. Tolkien, Lord of the Rings, Pg. 146

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